Defining Your Dream


Defining Your Dream

It takes courage to put a stake in the ground and define your dream. There is a lot at stake and it is much easier to just leave things unsaid. Placing specifics around the who, the what, the why and the how of your dream puts a person in a place where they could ultimately be disappointed or hurt. Dreaming is a bit of a double-edged sword. Part of dreaming is this safe, utopic-like time filled with warm and fuzzy feelings. The other side of dreaming involves a conscious self-realization which allows one to really specify what they believe God has put them here for. Both of these types of dreaming are valuable and required for the full life which Jesus spoke about so many times in the Bible. Here in this article, I hope to put my stake in the ground. I hope to do what I would encourage each one of you to do which is to dream with intentionality.

Pivotal Moments

Back in 2008 I was working for Apple, when a series of events unfolded which became turning points in my life as a believer and my career as a mobile developer. In a six month period of time, I learned I loved apps and wanted to work in this field. Second, I saw my church, Life.Church, release the Bible App which would change the way many engage with the Bible forever. Third, I started down the path towards a career as a mobile developer. Looking back it is easy to see, but walking through the events I had no clue just how pivotal these events would become in my life.

My Love for Apps

Oh wow, it is 2008, the iPhone is still a new piece of technology, Apple launched this app on the iPhone called the App Store and I am awestruck by this combination of events. App developers of all kinds are seizing the gold rush of the App Store by publishing their apps to the App Store. I am determined to stay on top of all the latest and greatest apps in the App Store. I was working for Apple Retail which gave me plenty of time and made this task super convenient. Being the resident App expert at our Apple Store gave my time there even greater meaning.

Life.Church Releases YouVersion

So here I was enjoying the glory days of the App Store and the iPhone when my church, Life.Church, releases the Bible as an app. Much like Bobby Gruenewald, I had longed to engage in the Bible in a more consistent way, but I had struggled to do so because I did not always have my Bible around with me wherever I went. With the release of the Bible App, I was now afforded the convenience that many have longed for. The Bible was now with me everywhere I went. The App was gaining unbelievable traction in the App Store and it was an exciting time to say the least.

The accessibility of YouVersion was a wonderful convenience, but was not an overnight game-changer in terms of my daily walk with God. I would say my Bible engagement went way up, but it took some work on my part to engage with the Bible on a daily basis.

My Time at University

In 2011, I started down the road towards my dream of becoming a mobile developer by enrolling in the Mobile Development Bachelor of Science at Full Sail University Online. In many ways, I believed this would give me the credibility to enter into my career as a mobile developer. At this point working at YouVersion was only a nice, warm and fuzzy type dream. It sounded like a wonderful, great idea, but the dream had no legs at this point in time. Over the next few years, Full Sail University would prove to be more of a burden than anything.

Empty Promises and misplaced attempts at validation

At the end of a few years at FSO, the program had drastically failed to deliver on what it promised. My class of sixteen students was the inaugural class for the Mobile Development Bachelor of Science at Full Sail University. Out of a total of sixteen students, I was one of four left in the program who would make it to the final academic year of the program. The other twelve had dropped out due to a university program which was severely lacking or for personal problems.

The staff and administration at the university were unwilling to listen or act on any input I was providing them regarding the new mobile development program I was attending. I was without any portfolio pieces to begin my career and I now had a huge mountain of debt which was overwhelming. The promised portfolio projects did not exist. In the software world we call these projects vaporware.


The program was no longer delivering the quality education the school promised and instead of graduation getting closer, it seemed farther away. I was spending an absorbinant amount of time each day on school knowing these projects were useless when it came to future employers or clients. Fourteen hour days back to back to back were commonplace. I could not hold down any sort of work due to the time commitment needed by the program. I was too far into the program to just back out. I owed well over $40,000 in FSO school loans.

Tough Decisions

Here I found myself at a crossroads of sorts, keep going to school knowing it would do little to help me land work, or pursue other avenues such as building my own projects. I had several ideas in mind, but I had put these aside while I got what I initially thought was proper applied computer science education. I was burning the candle at both ends and I had little to show for the time or money invested with FSO. At this time, I had no intentions of working for anyone else. I had lost all hope of working for Life.Church, after applying to work for Life.Church many times without any potential leads. I wanted to build my own products and possibly take on independent contract work. This was my dream.

Recognizing Pivotal Moments

So here I was, my dream had effectively stalled. Instead of bringing me closer to my dream, I had managed to put more obstacles between me and my dream. Each of these events were turning points in the pursuit of my dream or my Chazown. Realizing my vocation, watching as YouVersion was released to the world, and my time at university all taught me things and all point towards my Chazown. By taking time to look back at these now, it is easy to see God at work. I can also see God pointing me towards something I could not see at the time.

Choose Wisely

When you experience a move of God all you want to do is tell people about what God has done.  Filled with such hope and confidence, all you want to do is share it.  So here I was completely intent on telling my story any and every chance I got when something unexpected happened. All of a sudden, I lost all motivation to tell my story. The bizarre confidence I had gained in telling my story was gone. I looked up and all of a sudden my story had lost its excitement. What I once felt could not be stopped had come to a screeching halt.  So hold on...what has just happened here?! I was just soaring above the trees telling my story of hope to all who might come along and then...thud.

I awoke with a mouth full of dirt, face firmly planted on the ground. I picked myself up and dusted off the soil from my clothes.  Now, I had mentioned in my prior two posts that my story was becoming increasingly more real the more that I told it. So what would happen if I stopped telling it? Would my story be any different?  If my story loses steam what happens?  Does it change my story?

A lesson I have learned in other areas of my life is that what we do not know has the potential to hurt us.  Early in the sharing of our story, we must learn to choose wisely who we share it with.  When God moves we want to shout it from the mountaintops, but what we may not realize is there is a time for everything.  Early in the process of telling your story, the response of others can play a crucial role in fueling your story.

Who we choose to share it with can have damaging consequences.  It can fan the flame or it has the power to extinguish your flame.  This is the perfect time to take it to God.  Ask Him who you should share your story with and when.  Seek His guidance before you blurt out all that God has done!  The time will come when you share your story with anyone willing to listen, but now is not the time.  Pray often and choose wisely...